excited~~

i m really excited and happy... woo hoo~~~ i am one of the winner for A. C. 2010...

this is a competition, where you can submit our idea for new facebook application... we just need to submit our idea by words or video.... i submit mine on the last minute before the closing date.... by the way, the name for my application is 'woohoo friend'... why this name? because i cannot think of a better.... haha

我太开心了. 当我看到我的名字在得奖名单上，我是多么的兴奋啊！！奖品丰富不在话下，最重要的是我的idea被接纳了。哈哈！！…^^… 非常有成就感。

又是梦~~

看了Inception后，得到了一个结论--人生本是一场梦。

Yesterday night I dream again, it is about my family has move emigrate to a big city. in my dream the city is named Kuching, but it is not really the Kuching that i know, but like somewhere in China i guess. Along the way to my new house there is a traffic jam. i wonder why suddenly my parent being so rich. Ha ha... My aunt family also came to our new house. the house is really big, like an apartment but only has a floor. In the house there has a big living room and dining room. the tv is LCD and quite big in size and a L-shape sofa. There are two big rooms ,a room for my brother and a room for me. the toilet and the bathroom also are big. The house is a bit messy, i think is because we just move in to the house and it is my first time to step into the house. My room have two to three beds(don't know why). Besides, I also dream of my sis and her husband and their newly born baby--Yi Chen. He is really cute and small. But in my dream, he can become big suddenly, it is really weird. ha ha..

Yesterday night was also the second night that i dream about him. Maybe i really miss him a lot or i know that we will never meet again, so i need to meet him in my dream. in the dream, he is still cute and funny. in the reality i know that it is just a dream. Although we always say nothing is impossible, but in this case, impossible is impossible....

宇中-歌词连连看^^

回到案发现场，不小心踩到地上的瓶盖，回忆像倒带般涌现。游乐场里的空秋千和不转木马，还有那幸福马戏团和我们的主题曲的旋律。你轻轻的叫阮的名，说你不只是我路过的新娘，你要改嫁到我怀里;而我是你的靠岸，你的幸福，想要和我活到一百岁。突然一声猫头鹰的呜呼，我回过神来，泪湿了脸颊。我要你复活，要我们有个优雅的分手，想要和你再见，而不是离我远远的，跟我玩捉迷藏。我没学过失恋学，不懂得如何把你忘记。我对你的爱就像不打烊的店，24小时全年无休，没尽头。(2010/11/13)

nightmare!!!

Although, I called that 'incident' as a nightmare, but it is not really a dream.

This morning about 2.30am, i received several phone calls from the same person. i missed the first call, but i had been shock by my ringtone. After several minutes, my phone ring again, i picked up the phone, i don't know what kind of language that he was talking about, then i used English to conversation to him. i don't remember that was i the one who end the conversation or not. the guy's sound like Indonesian, his voice really frighten me, is so flat, just like someone who are reading the spell.

Then i fall asleep again, the third call was coming, the ringtone shock me again and my heart beat went so fast. i picked up the phone again. In this time, i spoke Malay to him, ask him who did him looking for and called him stop call me. His voice, for me is just like ghost. it scared me, so i leaved my phone there and not reply to him. lastly he end the conversation. After that, i put my phone into silent mode.

i think this is really a nightmare for me...

please keep this kind of people out of my way....

到底是羡慕还是妒忌？

在这个世界上有谁会不希望被爱呢？是的，我内心是十分渴望被爱，渴望被人捧在手心的感觉，只是我倔强的个性不让我表现出来罢了。每当我看见他们双双对对的，是羡慕，也是妒忌，也多么希望下一个得到幸福的会是我。可是为什么我渴望的是从来不曾发生在我身上呢？是我个人的问题，还是缘份还没到呢？。。。其实我总是觉得我应该会嫁不出去，当个老姑婆呢。。。哈哈。。。不过我的第六感一向来都很准的，不懂会不会成为事实呢！好担心。。。可是，我朋友都认为是我想太多了，他们都要我主动追求自己的幸福，如果遇到喜欢的就应该主动。但是，我总是觉得这样超别扭的，也很尴尬。。。或许我这一辈子注定在感情的国度里就是个失败者。。。无论是亲情，友情，还是爱情。。。

为何人生总是充满遗憾和后悔？

在我活着的这21年里，我想我应该还没尝过遗憾的滋味吧！至于后悔，还蛮长的，后悔没善用时间，后悔没努力争取某样东西，也很后悔没善用机会，没能与他攀谈。人们常说机会是给准备好的人，我想可能是我还没准备好吧！哈哈，或许吧！或许我们有缘无份吧！所以我常想后悔永远都不能追回时间，那我们何必后悔呢？就像即时我们能预知未来，但是我们却不能改变未来。。。像一部电影——THE TIME TRAVERER'S WIFE里所演的那样，就算你知道你将要死亡，但你却不能阻止悲剧的发生。所以，我常抱着是你的就是你的，不是你的强求也得不到的心态来面对所有的事情。也许有人会觉得我不够积极，但是我觉得做人只要开心就好。但是我还是希望可以有机会认识他咯！哈哈。。。